He's still there for me....

Once again I said my goodbyes
To those who I love most
My heart feels that familiar pain
As I long for home
'Cause this road is hard
When I feel so far
 
On the day that You called my name
All that I knew changed
I found when I said yes that I'd never be the same
Though the call is hard
You are worth it all

Even when the tears are falling
When I find I fear the calling
You remind me
Words You've spoken over my life
Promises I've yet to see
You comfort me

God I'm crying out tonight
'Cause I've given You my life
But I'm tired and I'm missing what's behind
So once more, here's my life
~Barlow Girl~

Even though I can't always feel God right next to me.  He's still there with me.  It doesn't matter what's happening in my life or whether or not I feel good.  He is always there with me.  This song popped up on my itunes tonight.  I found out that one of my tests that I took last week didn't go as well as I wanted it to.  I've really been missing all of my friends and family back home this week.  It's kind of discouraging knowing that I won't get to see most of them until Christmas break.  I'm exhausted and don't really know how I'm going to get through this week right now, but I do know that He will give me strength to keep going even when I don't feel like it.

On the up side...I do know how to study for this prof's tests for next time. :-)  Eventually, school will slow down a little bit and I'll be able to quit worrying about it so much....and I get to see my family in three months!!! :-)  For now though, I'm going to keep going where God has placed me.  He has brought me to this point for a reason.  I just don't always know what it is.

But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. ~Isaiah 40:31~